It's back...

These aggresions are back,
These tasteless feeling,
all rotting in my mind , everyone
Can't run anymore, delusions are cleared,
no distractions, and it comes,
feeling helpless all over again,
I belong nowhere, I know that much at least,
but it doesn't mean u could creep out of me,
My fears are being erased, while creating new ones,
If all is erased, i would not have the energy to control my limitations,
Depression,
really ever so painful,

suicide is the solution huh?
I'm doing so, so ever slowly.......